Be proud.

In the last few weeks I feel like I have accomplished something.

As I mentioned before, I am now a housewife, a regular exerciser and a full-time makeup artist. These are all new roles to me.

Firstly being a housewife does not come easy to me, I am not someone who likes housekeeping, and I have never lived on my own and assumed responsibility for a household.

I would have to be the first to admit that perhaps both my brother and I were spoiled, or fortunate I would like to say rather. But with that comes the downside of the feeling of diminished responsibility.
It is one of the things I have been struggling with, but I am slowly but surely winning at this. I am now on a schedule, and my housekeeping skills are definitely picking up and it makes me feel accomplished.

A regular exerciser (she thinks with a chuckle) – something I would never have called myself. I have been going to gym 4 times a week and I am loving it. I am not working towards losing a mountain of weight (I could probably), but no, I am working towards loving myself and taking better care of myself. I am slowly and surely achieving little goals and have actually lost 2 kg(s) in my progress and I am feeling great!

A full-time makeup artist – I have had the qualifications for some time, but have never used them as my only vocation. I do not know why, as I love it and it feels like I lose myself in my work when I am busy with someone’s makeup, my ever busy mind goes quiet and I am in a tranquil state. I am happy to say it looks like business is picking up and I will soon share some of my work with you.

To conclude a lot of rambling – for a long time I was unhappy in a job I didn’t care for, I always gave my best but because my heart was not in it I feel that even my best was not good enough.

I have now found things that I like and challenges that make me feel alive, and although sometimes I still don’t get it quite right I am SUPER proud of that which I have achieved since the start of the year.

Till next time…

xx

 

 

New year, new me…blah blah blah…

Funny enough the year has started, perhaps I was in hibernation or perhaps I was hiding from the blank pages of a new year.

As my first year or month (let’s not get ahead of ourselves shall we?) of being unemployed by my own choosing, I had to find my feet. Very early on I saw that if I do not start and keep myself busy I might just go stir-crazy or manically depressed.

Just like any other optimism driven person out there I have made resolutions(?), seeing these get broken way to often, I shall rather call them goals that I want to achieve in this coming year. The blog is my way of keeping myself accountable and opening myself up to new challenges.

My list goes a little something like this…

  1. Stop swearing (I can make a sailor blush)
  2. Sort and de-clutter my house (because I have been threatening to do so for years)
  3. Be active (yup I have joined a gym, more on that soon)
  4. Be healthy (I am really trying, and have lost a colossal 1kg – it’s a marathon not a sprint)
  5. Have a baby or at least get pregnant (I have always wanted to be a mom)
  6. Get my blog/website and Facebook page off the ground (YAY! A new post, I am on fire!)
  7. Study hard (if you know me you would know how hard this is for me, after attempting to read the first chapter of one of my 5 subjects, I got bored and wanted to nap)
  8. Be more positive (despite being an optimistic person I can have negative dips, and this is just to try and avoid those buggers)
  9. Speak love (just speak kindly to and of people, I can be a Judge Judy and by speaking love I am hoping to let go of my being critical and judgmental)
  10. Be Happy (just as it says, and still be even if I only do one or two things on this list

There you have it folks 10 goals I would like to achieve this year. As promised more on point 3 – I have joined a gym and would love to be one of those Instagrammers who documents their progress and I have made videos but feel to insecure to post them. But, and this I am realising this as I am typing, my blog is about learning to love me as a human, and to love my silliness and if posting my progress on Instagram is deemed silly then so be it. It is something I want to do and I am going to do it!

Enough babbling from me today, chat again soon.

xx

We all start somewhere.

 

We all start somewhere, the biggest notion of this statement is that we do – start.

Many a blog or an unfinished blog have gone through my hands, and never have I ever followed through with my initial ideas of such a project.

That was until my best-friend’s sister introduced me to Brooke Castillo, life coach and truth-speaker extraordinaire. I have been listening to her podcast ever since I first opened my ears to her knowledge about weight and money and life.

I am what some would call obese, chubby, cuddly, fat. But, and this is something that I have learnt through my listening of Brooke’s podcasts, that my body does not define me, it is not who I am, it is merely the vehicle in which my soul travels.

Since having a look at my life through this new perspective; my weightiness is merely a state my vehicle is in. I know that in order for a vehicle to run properly one needs to service it regularly, one needs to pamper and love it, and when you do this you will have many happy miles with your vehicle. Hence the start, of restoring my vehicle to its best condition. (Mentally & Physically)

I am a makeup artist and for the first time I am pursuing this dream full time. Late last year I took the plunge and quit my 9-5, it was daunting but my heart said it was time. I am a wife to a lovely hubby and  I am following my dream to studying psychology (part-time) and I am a mom to the cutest Yorkie ever.

My newly found inspiration has me reading books, and talking about uplifting my self and those women around me, we all have hopes and beliefs (some crappy) and we are held back sometimes by circumstances, mostly by ourselves and with this blog I intend to help not only myself get out and face the world and live my best life, but also inspire other women to do so too.

Besides, as women we all understand that we are all going through life being strong for others, caring for others and putting ourselves last. This stops today – we can only give more of ourselves when we give enough to ourselves.

Please join me on my journey of self-discovery and finding true and honest love and happiness within and with myself.